I have been thinking about writing this for some time and decided to do it now. I know the past is in the past and presently you are happily married and I know your future is full of possibilities. But lately, there has been a lot on my mind and I felt the need to reveal this to you.
You are truly an amazing man. The one who married you is a very lucky woman. I admire her for so many reasons. She ended up marrying my soul mate, the man of my dreams….the one that I let get away. You taught me so much many years ago for all those years we dated. It seems like an eternity since we were a couple but the love I hold deep in my heart for you shines on.
I learned a lot from you. I learned I deserve the kind of love you showed me every day we were together. You showed me a life I could only dream of. You loved me unconditionally until I pushed you too far and eventually pushed you away into a life…a future with another woman. And ever since then, I have been looking for that kind of love. The funny thing is, I now give the kind of love you gave me to every man I have been in a relationship with. I am the one giving 110% and not getting much in return. It’s horrible feeling and it breaks my heart. Now, I know how you felt all those years ago. I was just too young and dumb to realize what a real relationship was suppose to be like. At that time, you did deserve better than me. I couldn’t give you what you needed nor wanted. And for that I am truly sorry. I am sorry for breaking your heart. I am sorry I let you go. I am sorry for being who I was back then.
You have impacted my life and my heart in a way I don’t think you realize. You will always have a special place in my heart that no man can ever replace. I will always love you and regret the decisions and choices I have made. I hope you can forgive me for making these mistakes and know I never meant to hurt you. Maybe one of these days, I will eventually forgive myself.
It took time, a lot of failed relationships, growing up and soul searching to make me realize you were the one that got away. My heart will always be with you.